Well at 2am in the morning on a friday night when you're feeling down, what better thing is there to do then create your first deviation in a long long time.

I don't know whether or not many people will bother looking at this as a great deal of the people here at dA aren't literature fans (Much like myself - I enjoy writing it but not reading it) but I hope that to those of you that do read it atleast feel that little bit of emotion from it.

To me it's a fairly big deal that I upload this to dA as it's intended as a gift for one person. She should know who she is if not she's nuts.

There's a fair bit of self reflection that I've put into this piece. For instance, my life was very much so a dull boring empty shell until along my path I met a lovely lady. Trust was something at this point that I did not grant a great deal of people - as was my friendship - so even taking the leap to bridge that gap was a major ordeal in my life (Which she may not know).

She change my life and the way that I saw everything on a day to day basis. For once, it truely felt like I had a home that I could come home to and be happy to be greeted by such a loving lady. She broke through virtually all of the walls I had built up around myself and slowly but surely began helping me rebuild my castle but not alone this time.


Lately it's seemed like her past has been catching up to her and one of her old acquantances has sprung back into the picture. To me it feels like a struggle to find out whether this old friend is the force that'll break us apart or the cause of something that'll certainly make us stay together for our eternity. Through my own faults, jealosy and negativities I will say that I am insecure about how things are right now and sadly after trying in the past I have failed at stepping up to these challenges. There is a personality bridge that I cannot climb over instantly but I do wish to work on it and with help of friends I will try my best.

After this long and gruelsome night, there's a feeling deep down within my heart that no matter what has happened I love this lady and I know if we put our minds and hearts to it we can make it through anything.

If anything, I'd like to tribute this piece of literature to her and the wonderful changes that she's made to my life. I hope for dear sake that she'll see me and love me through plenty more times ahead.